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Bad Thoughts

I used to have so many thought inside my head. Jumbled around, trying to get out. Yeah, I jump from thought to thought, desperate to find a meaning. I have so many thoughts inside my head but I have nobody to share them with. I'm afraid of telling people what I feel. These thoughts need to get out. They need to be released, somehow. So, I just write them here, in my blog and hope that someone will actually listen. You never know what its like getting up every morning feeling hopeless. Nay, you do know what it feels like? Horrible.

well, it's actually amazing how those unhelpful thoughts suddenly gone now. it's maybe because I am blessed with my life after the hardship I've been through so much these past few months. I have learnt a lot from the past, I guess. it helps me to be forgiven, learn to let go and live the life. you will feel better because I am. Major thanks to him, he helps a lot during the journey. I appreciate that so much. He never give up on me. 

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